Bee: My Meme Dealer

[magic_fratboy]

Your Sunglasses Say You're a Leader

You are competent, direct, and powerful. You are focused on success in all aspects of your life. You need to be shaded from moochers and parasitic people. You feel sunniest when you're around people as driven and and brilliant as you are.

The Sunglasses Test

These things are really starting to scare me.

Comments

[possessingbadge.livejournal.com]

Heh. I got the same thing.

[magic-fratboy.livejournal.com]

Once upon a time, that would've surprised me...not so much anymore.

[possessingbadge.livejournal.com]

Have I changed that much?

[magic-fratboy.livejournal.com]

Nah...I have.

[possessingbadge.livejournal.com]

I don't know. I always thought you were powerful.

[magic-fratboy.livejournal.com]

Not on a personal level, but I've been seeing it more in myself, and not in a good way. I can't help it, either.

I haven't thrown my weight around and enjoyed it this much since 1926.

[possessingbadge.livejournal.com]

Not in a good way? What's going on?

And that's a bad thing...

[magic-fratboy.livejournal.com]

Nothing big, just...stress, I guess. Playing the waiting game. It's killing me and pissing me off at the same time. Keeping my temper in check is wearing me out.

I just don't wanna get to where I turn into...well...myself. I could be kind of a bastard back in the day.

[possessingbadge.livejournal.com]

It's hard to imagine you a bastard. You're probably not as bad as you think.

[magic-fratboy.livejournal.com]

I can be...I used to be. I could be narrow minded and vicious when I got a bug up my ass.

[possessingbadge.livejournal.com]

You could be describing anyone though. Truth is man, you're not some fucking Buddha. No one expects you to be. But Tommy, you come closer than anyone I've ever met. You're sweet, honest, confident without being cocky, and understanding of most things. You give people hope, not just in whatever they are doubting but in other people that there can be more people like you. So what if you get angry sometimes. You have one of the longest fuses ever my friend and if someone going to provoke you to the end of it, they deserve a little viciousness. And maybe next time they won't be such fucking dumbasses.

[magic-fratboy.livejournal.com]

The last time I truly lost my temper, I blacked out and I killed two men.

[possessingbadge.livejournal.com]

*Jaw drops* Whoa. Seriously? Was it self defense? Did you turn yourself in?

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[magic-fratboy.livejournal.com]

Not really, no. I don't remember what happened, to this day...it was just a little while after me and Zee got together. She was taken and I found her, me and the boys in the Fraternity. All I remember is getting wind of where she was being held, then next thing I know I'm holding her, I'm bleeding all over...and my boy Dog tells me that I killed two guys. One of 'em was like Zee...I killed him by beating his head into the floor.

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[possessingbadge.livejournal.com]

Did they stay dead or did they heal like she does... did... whatever?

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[magic-fratboy.livejournal.com]

...you ever see that movie, SIN CITY? You know what Hartigan did to that yellow guy?...

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[possessingbadge.livejournal.com]

Holy shit... I hate to say it because you know I love you but you should have turned yourself in. It was a kidnapping. Zee's life was in danger and it sounds to me like temporary insanity. There's no way you would have done any time but someone out there went without closure due to this. They could have had families.

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[magic-fratboy.livejournal.com]

Oh...don't get me wrong, I got no regrets for what I did. I'm glad those men are dead, what bothers me is that I was capable of that level of violence. What if there had been an innocent bystander in my way? I was so far gone I wouldn't have cared...I don't think.

It's more than just temporary insanity, it's...it's a part of my past I can't control. I remember being Houdini, I even remember a good chunk of my life as Epimetheus, but there's parts I don't. And when those parts wake up...everything else in my head just shuts down, and it only happens when I get angry.

I kill every day, Laur, but those two men were the first I ever killed that had absolutely no direct connection to The Darkness.

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[possessingbadge.livejournal.com]

But you kill nonhuman stuff like that blobby thing that made you into a Greek pot sticker. Not people... *looks suddenly disturbed* Not people, right?