[tod] 14 - T(ruth): Discuss a time you held back from taking action and your reason for it

[magic_fratboy]

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I have a picture of Harry Houdini in my office, sitting right on my desk. It’s something I clipped out of a magazine, tucked into the corner of a framed pic of my folks. Always felt right to put it there, ya know?

I have a photo of Zee on my desk now, right next to that one. After she bought me that biplane for my birthday, I moved the picture of Houdini to her frame. It just felt right…like somehow, two halves of me were converging, like I was in the frame with her.

I put Houdini back with my parents. I can’t feel the connection anymore.

About a week ago, the mother of my child was nearly attacked by a Bringer, and it was all my fault. What I am, who I am…it put my family in danger.

About a week ago, I stopped using magic.

I talked to some guys in the Fraternity, the Kellar twins in particular, and I got the information. They left the order years ago, gave up magic completely after Mike’s wife passed away. She died serving the Fraternity…it devastated him. The way it works is that the power feeds itself. Use it, it gets stronger. Stop, and it goes to sleep and the light inside goes out.

The Darkness won’t see you, won’t touch you. It’s not permanent, but it might as well be, according to the twins they played hell waking the power again.

My problem is that I have more invested in the power than most. My past, my memories…they’re tied into who and what I am. I really have more in common with Hekate, Katie, than I do with anyone in the brotherhood.

It’s been a week. I tried to levitate this morning and I couldn’t. I moved that picture right after because I couldn’t feel the connection.

I’m not in that frame with her anymore…I don’t remember when that picture was taken.

My power’s gone…but so are my memories. Houdini’s dead…it’s just me now.

Me. Alone.

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Muse: Tommy Karras
Fandom: Original Character
Words: 340

Comments

[3rd-ray.livejournal.com]

The Bringers would not have gotten to Ziyah, nor your unborn child. I am, and will always be standing between them and your loved ones, particularily for the mother.

I fail to understand why you feel this is your fault though. There are other dangers that arise from her side as well. By you not having your abilities, this leaves your family so vulnerable.

[magic-fratboy.livejournal.com]

I knew when I set out to do this...but I couldn't tell you why I did it anymore. It had something to do with Houdini...

Jesus, it's gone. But I still believe this is right. I can still protect her, no matter what. If the Darkness leaves us alone, what's a few immortals compared to that?

[3rd-ray.livejournal.com]

Then how do you justify your actions of you don't remember.

Her immortal kind can be just as dark. Their agenda is about selfishness and her being as young and unexperienced is the gateway to their victory. How do you plan on protecting her?

[magic-fratboy.livejournal.com]

Without my power, I'm not a threat. She's safe, and so's the baby. It's not like this is unusual in my family, anyway. My father gave up his power for my mother, I'm doing the same for my girl.

I'll lay down my life if I have to to protect her, but we're not alone. For one, we got you in our corner, right? I can protect my girl and my child. Period.

[3rd-ray.livejournal.com]

Then you need to tell her before she begins to understand on her own, or worse, if the Fates decide to play a foolish game. She will understand your reasons.

I know you would, Tommy, and I will do as I am called to do in protecting her and your child. In any event that you need anything else, call for me. Please.

[magic-fratboy.livejournal.com]

She won't understand, I can't tell her. Not yet.

But I'll call you if I need you, thanks. It's comforting to know if I got a prayer to toss out there, someone's listening.

[3rd-ray.livejournal.com]

Don't wait too long.

I am always listening and will always be watching out for your family. It is imperative you remember that.