Oh...don't get me wrong, I got no regrets for what I did. I'm glad those men are dead, what bothers me is that I was capable of that level of violence. What if there had been an innocent bystander in my way? I was so far gone I wouldn't have cared...I don't think.
It's more than just temporary insanity, it's...it's a part of my past I can't control. I remember being Houdini, I even remember a good chunk of my life as Epimetheus, but there's parts I don't. And when those parts wake up...everything else in my head just shuts down, and it only happens when I get angry.
I kill every day, Laur, but those two men were the first I ever killed that had absolutely no direct connection to The Darkness.
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Date: 2009-04-13 07:50 pm (UTC)It's more than just temporary insanity, it's...it's a part of my past I can't control. I remember being Houdini, I even remember a good chunk of my life as Epimetheus, but there's parts I don't. And when those parts wake up...everything else in my head just shuts down, and it only happens when I get angry.
I kill every day, Laur, but those two men were the first I ever killed that had absolutely no direct connection to The Darkness.