[journal] a dream is a nightmare from the dark...

[magic_fratboy]

I should've known that today wouldn't start well, being that Valentine's Day was so easy to get through.

The nightmares I've been having are getting worse. It's this weird mix of horrifying dreams, then this compulsion to paint or draw. It's like if I can get 'em out of my head onto paper or something, I can escape what's coming...what they're showing me.

I'm pretty convinced at this point that I'm having visions again.

Yeah, visions...Zee was the only one I ever told flat-out, but I can see the future. It's kind of an oddball gift, but I can see future events based on the knowledge of the past, and bein' that I was the god of hindsight once upon a time? The past is known to me. All of it.

Problem is, the visions I have are dark and disjointed. Lots of symbols and images I can't understand half the time. Some I can, but these I been having? I don't know what they are, just that they scare me.



The first one I did the same night I did "The Bride," which some have already seen. The second one I did night before last. First is untitled, second one is "Amystika."



First one's from the first run, second was night before last again. First is untitled, second is "The Lady."



"The Bride," for those that didn't see it yet.

This one I did just this morning...



I don't know what to make of 'em, I just know these images scare me. The faceless bride as a Face of the Darkness, the broken living dolls, the nightmare hares...I feel like I'm goin' nuts or something.

The only thing I'm sure of is that these images are getting clearer. Maybe I'll understand more about them when I can see more...I'm just praying that by the time they reveal themselves to me, something horrible hasn't happened that I could have prevented.

May's crying...I gotta go.

Comments

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

Geez, Tommy. It's like Donnie Darko meets Tim Burton meets The Labyrinth.

[magic-fratboy.livejournal.com]

I know, it's fucked. Not all my visions are like this, but...these ain't normal visions, and I been having a lot lately. Hell, I've even had some about you.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

...Me?

[magic-fratboy.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Least I think so...I'm pretty sure. I could be wrong, but...

I see eyes. They're your eyes...but they're blue. Same shape, same look, just a different color. They're a child's eyes.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

...Oh. Oh my God, y--oh.

[magic-fratboy.livejournal.com]

Yyyyeah. I can't even see a face, just those eyes, but there's a look in 'em...

May's gettin' to where she actually knows things. She's about two months now, two and a half damn near, and she can focus on objects, smile on her own, even hold her head up a little. She knows me when she sees me, and a week ago or so she looked at me for the first time...and not only did she see me? But she looked at me...and I knew she loved me. I could see it in her eyes.

I know you been worried about this kid, Bee, but...I think you don't have to worry 'bout anything happening to your baby before it's born.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

Do you really think so?

[magic-fratboy.livejournal.com]

I do...like I said, my visions are sketchy at best, but they come from a knowledge of the past. There's no future without one, ya know?

Believe, babe. Unlikely as it is, you and Julian got pregnant. Just like me and Zee.

We don't always know what they are, but some things in life are sure bets.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

...Thanks, Tommy.

[magic-fratboy.livejournal.com]

No problem, babe...hell, what're friends for? Especially since our kids are gonna grow up together, I hope.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

That's a definitely possibility...