[jp] letter to my child...
Jan. 27th, 2009 09:28 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
magic_fratboyContents of a letter written by Tommy Karras on January 27, 2009 and sent to his attorney with instructions to safeguard it alongside his will...
Mayilia,
I’m writing you this letter about a week before I’m scheduled to be shackled into a coffin and buried alive, and leaving it for later just in case. You’re not supposed to get this letter ‘till you turn eighteen, so if you’re reading this then you’re all grown up.
It also means I’m dead or otherwise gone, and as hollow it sounds I want you to know I’m sorry for that.
I could say all sorts of things to try and give you some measure of comfort. I could tell you to keep the faith, have hope in spite of everything, but I know that pretty words won’t help. It won’t bring me back to you, and it won’t change the kind of life you’ve led.
I can only tell you two things that I think will help you in your life, pretty girl. Sitting here as I write this, I’m watching your Cousin Carbone play with you in your baby seat. You’re about a month and a half old, you look just like your mother, and you’re loved by a lot of people.
Babe, I can tell you right now that love is more than a face of Hope. It’s more than life and purpose for avatars like us. It’s a living thing and it’s so powerful, more than you may ever realize. It moves through time and space and brands you, leaves lasting marks on the people it touches. Love lives, even when everything else dies.
I’m gonna lean over here and kiss you, baby girl, and if you close your eyes right now and open yourself to the love I have for you? In your time, in your space, you’ll feel me. The warmth of my cheek, the touch of my lips, and the safety that comes from knowing that in the entire world, in all of existence, not another living creature is as cherished or as adored as you are. You’ll feel it, know it as if it were a reality in your here and now: in one man’s life, you were the point where the sun rose and set.
You were important, and loved beyond measure. Let that love wrap around you, and know that you can feel it any time you want. Know that I loved you enough to last a thousand lifetimes, and even though I’m gone forever I love you still. Love survives.
The last thing I can tell you, and it’s cold comfort, is that however I ended up? I died without regret. I found love, had a beautiful child, and I fought against a very real threat for a cause I believed in. I know I hurt people by being gone, by choosing the life I led, but if I hadn’t? Sweetie, you wouldn’t be here.
The world needs you, and it needs you at your best. That’s why I fought, that’s why I died. Now you may feel like that’s your purpose, too, and it pains me to do this…but go for it. If the Fraternity is your destiny, seize it with both hands.
If it’s not, though, then listen to your father: don’t let anyone push you into it. You’re a child of a Titan god, the daughter of Houdini, my perfect baby girl and I’m telling you that this life may not be your life. Be at your best, whatever it is. If you do that, the world will be better for it, and my life will have meant something.
I love you. Your mom loves you. That love lives on today because you live on. You’re the best of both of us, and long after all three of us are dead and gone the world will remember that piece of purity we all created: us by loving each other, and you for being born, living your life, and touching the hearts of others.
I’m gonna stop writing now, but I won’t end this letter. I won’t end it because this conversation isn’t over. If you ever feel doubt, ever find a moment when you’re confused or afraid then you reach out to me. That love I gave you, that moment we just shared in a kiss on the cheek will link us across the gulf that separates us now. You’ll feel me, and you’ll know what to do. You’ll be stronger, and I hope you’ll be comforted.
I have hope for you, babe. I have hope enough to make you a very powerful young woman.
I love you…here, then, and always. Keep that in mind, okay?
Muse: Tommy Karras
Fandom: Original Character
Words: 761
Mayilia,
I’m writing you this letter about a week before I’m scheduled to be shackled into a coffin and buried alive, and leaving it for later just in case. You’re not supposed to get this letter ‘till you turn eighteen, so if you’re reading this then you’re all grown up.
It also means I’m dead or otherwise gone, and as hollow it sounds I want you to know I’m sorry for that.
I could say all sorts of things to try and give you some measure of comfort. I could tell you to keep the faith, have hope in spite of everything, but I know that pretty words won’t help. It won’t bring me back to you, and it won’t change the kind of life you’ve led.
I can only tell you two things that I think will help you in your life, pretty girl. Sitting here as I write this, I’m watching your Cousin Carbone play with you in your baby seat. You’re about a month and a half old, you look just like your mother, and you’re loved by a lot of people.
Babe, I can tell you right now that love is more than a face of Hope. It’s more than life and purpose for avatars like us. It’s a living thing and it’s so powerful, more than you may ever realize. It moves through time and space and brands you, leaves lasting marks on the people it touches. Love lives, even when everything else dies.
I’m gonna lean over here and kiss you, baby girl, and if you close your eyes right now and open yourself to the love I have for you? In your time, in your space, you’ll feel me. The warmth of my cheek, the touch of my lips, and the safety that comes from knowing that in the entire world, in all of existence, not another living creature is as cherished or as adored as you are. You’ll feel it, know it as if it were a reality in your here and now: in one man’s life, you were the point where the sun rose and set.
You were important, and loved beyond measure. Let that love wrap around you, and know that you can feel it any time you want. Know that I loved you enough to last a thousand lifetimes, and even though I’m gone forever I love you still. Love survives.
The last thing I can tell you, and it’s cold comfort, is that however I ended up? I died without regret. I found love, had a beautiful child, and I fought against a very real threat for a cause I believed in. I know I hurt people by being gone, by choosing the life I led, but if I hadn’t? Sweetie, you wouldn’t be here.
The world needs you, and it needs you at your best. That’s why I fought, that’s why I died. Now you may feel like that’s your purpose, too, and it pains me to do this…but go for it. If the Fraternity is your destiny, seize it with both hands.
If it’s not, though, then listen to your father: don’t let anyone push you into it. You’re a child of a Titan god, the daughter of Houdini, my perfect baby girl and I’m telling you that this life may not be your life. Be at your best, whatever it is. If you do that, the world will be better for it, and my life will have meant something.
I love you. Your mom loves you. That love lives on today because you live on. You’re the best of both of us, and long after all three of us are dead and gone the world will remember that piece of purity we all created: us by loving each other, and you for being born, living your life, and touching the hearts of others.
I’m gonna stop writing now, but I won’t end this letter. I won’t end it because this conversation isn’t over. If you ever feel doubt, ever find a moment when you’re confused or afraid then you reach out to me. That love I gave you, that moment we just shared in a kiss on the cheek will link us across the gulf that separates us now. You’ll feel me, and you’ll know what to do. You’ll be stronger, and I hope you’ll be comforted.
I have hope for you, babe. I have hope enough to make you a very powerful young woman.
I love you…here, then, and always. Keep that in mind, okay?
Muse: Tommy Karras
Fandom: Original Character
Words: 761
