Her expression turned defensive and by looking away, she tried to harden herself that much more. It wasn't that she wanted to hide it from him. Not because she was ashamed, or even that this child was unwanted. And the last thing she wanted him to do was laugh at her because she was being silly over the reasons she didn't tell him.
To her, the "why" was a perfectly justified reason.
She set the cloth she was holding aside and got to her feet. Less eye contact between him and her, the better. But her voice carried loud enough for him to hear that she was firm in what she believed.
"We were lucky with May. So damn lucky, T..."
She stopped again, distracted herself by putting a few of her daughters things back in the open diaper bag and shook her head.
"When someone realizes what is going on, they're going to end it. And if I told you, you would've gotten just as excited as you did with her and gotten too involved and.." A pause. "You've had too much grief since you met me and I don't want you resenting me, or worse, someone else for taking it away."
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Date: 2010-05-18 04:38 pm (UTC)To her, the "why" was a perfectly justified reason.
She set the cloth she was holding aside and got to her feet. Less eye contact between him and her, the better. But her voice carried loud enough for him to hear that she was firm in what she believed.
"We were lucky with May. So damn lucky, T..."
She stopped again, distracted herself by putting a few of her daughters things back in the open diaper bag and shook her head.
"When someone realizes what is going on, they're going to end it. And if I told you, you would've gotten just as excited as you did with her and gotten too involved and.." A pause. "You've had too much grief since you met me and I don't want you resenting me, or worse, someone else for taking it away."